Yesterday was interesting. We were at my parents’ house, a couple miles away, watching the big game and eating chili and guacamole, having fun. Then, out of nowhere, my daughter and son asked if they could spend the night there, at their grandparents’ house…
Now we trust my parents completely with our kiddos. They are sweey, strong believers and are really close to them. This was going to be my kiddos first sleep over. And I’ll be honest, I was not ready for that. When I’m home from work, I like to be with my babies!! But here we were, Saturday afternoon and our kiddos want to spend the night with the grandparents. I’m a softy, we said yes
It was like a 50/50 shot that they would stay there all night. I dropped them off and they had pizza with the grandparents. I came home and it was quiet. It was just me, my lovely wife and our newborn. It was odd. I walked down the hallway, the empty bedrooms dark and silent, knowing that no laughter or voices would come out of those rooms this evening.
They didn’t call, they slept through the night. My lovely wife and I had a great night at home with us and Sophie, our newborn. We were missing our big kids, but we binge watched The Great British Baking Show season 3 and LOVED it!
Of course Soph woke up just before I went in for the kiss before bed (ahem…) 😉 so it wasn’t like this great honeymoon-ish night, but it was fun for us in a way to just be one with our littlest one.
It’s a portent of things to come. I can’t put into words how much I love raising our small kids. But I can feel the winds of change, riding on the horizon. One day they will be teenagers and going to sleepovers and going to college. It’s a ways away, but chronos ticks fast here this side of Heaven. I know God will have to grow me up in this place in my heart, one day he is going to come to me and say, “It’s time.”
I cried last night because I’m a baby haha. But as my babies grow into the young men and women that God is calling them up into, I know the tears will come more frequently. And God will start the process in me of shifting my goals of just playing and enjoying these beautiful children God endowed us with into the goal of helping them into their roles as mature men and women of God, one day starting their own families (if God calls them to a family life, single life is just as good!)
Oh, it’s going to be a tough road for my tender heart, but God’s will be done in my life.
It’s not happening today, thankfully. But one day, I’ll have to take on this big lesson for my heart.